sick..

yepp.. finally back home from taiwan trip.. exhausted.. last 2 days caught a flu.. keep coughing and sneezing.. really beh tahan neh.. and so sad din play dao last night.. almost everyone from group 6 stay awake till morning.. drink a lot and play all night.. haizz.. miss the fun neh..and this morning many of them still drunk de jiu go on plane lerr... being sick really beh tahan neh.. when the plane is landing today.. my eardrum is like going to burst.. really painful when the plane start to landing.. oh my fren.. really don go on board if u are sick.. 2 times landing dou tong dao bei tahan..
to my dear friends: i am back!!! hehe.. ^o^

feliz navidad

last post before going to taiwan now.. haha.. really headache.. dono bring wat clothes.. tou tong tou tong.. +_+ christmas christmas..

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christmas time

phew... december lorr!!! hehe.. christmas season le.. so gotta live in the forest of xmas trees again le.. hehe.. this year got many new de xmas trees.. quite nice larr.. no opinion.. ;P
haizz.. this year de mood not so good for christmas.. usually can deco 3-4 trees to sell at shop there.. but this year no mood deco!!! haizz... that day tried one pink colour.. just put on the lights.. then the light cannot light.. so sad.. have to take off the lights again.. so give up deco tree this year le.. no trees from me this year.. if i got time tomolo i do one gallant wif sis.. hehe.. want put one with many christmas flowers.. dono why.. this time i love the big red christmas flowers.. and also the yellow and silver de.. ^o^ my sis say at aus ppl put this flower on their hair as deco de.. i dun dare only.. can only wear it at shop.. haha.. ('~')

another important day in dec before xmas also coming oo..my bday!! haha.. but this year not home.. dono what my feeling now.. a bit happy and excited to go taiwan and celebrate my bday and xmas there.. a bit sad that i am not home this year for my bday.. gonna miss my frens and family bah.. really dunno how much am i looking forward to this taiwan trip..
haizz.. one day left for packing.. tou tong.. mama i duno need bring wat larr... +_+

straighten hair

hehe.. i straighten my front hair today.. actually just want the fringe back de.. then the girl there ask me want straighten marr.. after my mum go back.. haha.. so haven pay yet de.. coz mum only pay to cut hair.. haha.. 1st time.. just straighten suang de.. haha.. ^o^

i really good at waste money.. sorry yea mum and dad..

haha.. o_o

武装的蔷薇 倔强的凋谢

知道为什么蔷薇有刺吗?为了生存。。我们都得学会保护自己。。

或许吧。。没有那么坚强。。没有那么倔强。。我的刺。。好想断了。。让自己受伤了。。

武装的蔷薇 倔强的凋谢-- 神木与瞳

空气渐渐的连接 从空中将我破碎

你在的池塘北边 想考验谁的极限

不在容忍你的最 回首再见

总结掉你的一切

我看不见 你说的后悔

我不在乎 你的感觉

你的抱歉 是最后的纪念

木桩的蔷薇 倔强的凋谢

这一切早就该停止 掉泪

这一切早就该停止 受罪

受控着所有的欺骗

拆穿着所有的谎言

空气渐渐的连接 从空中将我破碎

我看不见 你说的后悔

我不在乎 你的感觉

你的抱歉 你最后的纪念

木桩的蔷薇 倔强的凋谢

走到终点 如果熄灭

残缺世界 一片黢黑

残酷边缘 冒险终结

我看不见 你说的后悔

我不在乎 你的感觉

你的抱歉 你最后的纪念

木桩的蔷薇 倔强的凋谢

我身边的幸福

如果一直错过我身边的幸福。。那我这一生不就过得很不快乐吗??
我啊。。很珍惜我过的每一刻。。能像现在的生活。。很棒很棒。。

开心时想和人分享，就写在这呗。。

烦恼事没人听，也写在这吧。。

looking back at my old blog.. i can always see how silly i had been.. or how simple is my life..
i treasure my life.. everything that happened.. and everyone present in my life.. and the ones who come and goes.. i love me.. for i am alive..

love is about anything.. because love is a choice..

谢谢你，给我幸福。。

do u know that life goes on??

do you know that life goes on?


i want to admit it.. today is already monday.. and friday morning i will be on my way to kl to taiwan.. for 3 weeks bah.. but.. i don feel the excitement at all.. to be true.. not even when i know that i was selected a few months ago.. just that my dear sis got go before.. i wanted to try it.. to experience the same thing she did before.. i din even check what activities am i going to play there.. and now.. see.. 3 days left.. i still got tonnes of things i haven do yet. my future is still a blank.. nothing.. and i am going for a trip that i dono wat izzit like.. when i am back, almost everyone are gone edi.. feel a bit regret that i din plan out my future earlier.. kk.. no regret in my life.. i don like it.. just now the ppl there phone me to assure that i am going on this trip.. and i start packing just now.. but.. haha.. now still nothing in the luggage.. winter.. 1st time.. and i am not excited at all yet.. life without the fren i thought we will be good for a longer time left me.. and.. i dono whether i still want you back.. i miss school life.. what the hell..

tagged

Rule 1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any questions that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
Rule 2 Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continuing this game by sending it to other people.
1. Do you have secrets?
yeah..
2. Would you fall in love with a guy younger than you?
hehe.. see 1st..
3. Do you enjoy going to college?
maybe eh.. =p
4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
after i spend it i can tell u..
5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
best friend thats all..
6. Will you tell your best friend that you love him not as a friend?
haha..
7. List 5 recently watched movies.
HSM3.. and one litre of tears (tv series de..) this year watch so little eh.. ngaidi lorr..
8.If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
nothing oo.. why like someone to cry myself?? forget it larr..
9.List 5 favourite TV shows.
one litre of tears.. fated to love you.. friends.. huanzhugege^o^.. galileo..
10. Do you have any regrets?
yeah..
11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
happy.. and not lonely..
12. Who is the most important person to you?
my family and friends..
13. What kind of person do you think the person that tagged you is?
always smile.. happy and loved o..
14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
dou dun want..
15. What is your favourite color?
pink eh..
16. Would you give all in a relationship?
erm..
17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, which one would you choose?
harr?? the one who love me lorr.. haha.. maybe the one i love more bah.. too hard this ques..
18. What are the top 5 places on your "to-go" list?
home..home..home..home..home..
19. Name 3 things you would like to do but would never be able to.
tell my eldest sister that i love her..i miss her.. i need her..
hug all my friends and tell all of them that i love them..
secret..
20. 5 people I have tagged.
uh..oh.. cannot tag anyone coz this blog cannot copy de.. XD

friends

friends can always bring joy no matter what terrible state are you in..
it doesn't matters even if we have separate lives.. think of different things.. live with different people.. we can always talk about something whenever we gather together.. laugh about something we do together.. and .... do a lot of things together.. that is what friends for..
i appreciate every moment i spent with my dear friends.. o.. lets exclude the time you all laugh me argh.. hehe.. just forget the stupid things we (i) did.. ^_^ lalalala..

okaey.. talk about how i spent my days after SPM.. meaningful!!?!?! haha..
1st day.. all day trip to fetch back my dear sister.. after so many months leaving home.. that girl maybe grew "up"a bit lor.. haha.. don comment her here..
2nd day.. "officially" open the new shop lorr.. haha.. confidential to my family only how we open it.. haha.. sometimes it is totally funny to be with family and talk silly..XD
3rd day... which is today.. spent time with friends le.. haha.. parkson there met kahying them.. then spent few hours search for prom dress for dear vv.. even go to imperial mall.. hehe.. sorry i left early to go home sleep lor.. din sleep much at night bah.. but din sleep dao oso.. haha.. rest a while liaw jiu go sophia house.. steamboat nite.. so full.. thank you oo uncle aunty!! eat so much there.. and also the ice cream.. we had a lovely time there.. sing sing sing a while.. then talk a bit about our future.. every one seems to have some plans oledi.. sii lorr.. me leh????!!!! nvm.. tonite still can sleep.. haha..

okay.. and then is the nights.. most of it is just blogging bah i think.. my mood is just extremely different.. hope tonight not.. haha.. i wont watch drama tonite.. quite tired today..
1st nite.. tiring journey all day rite.. but.. 12am i was asleep.. and then 2 am i wide awake liaw.. good.. cannot sleep oledi lorr.. so just lie there till morning.. note that that night got raining..
2nd nite.. shud sleep well de.. then..din on9.. so not my life de.. with a laptop but cannot on9.. so go find got any stock of drama lorr.. then.. a litre of tears.. yup.. i finish 6 episodes that nite.. till 130 or 230.. cannot read the time liaw larr.. eyes too tired from crying.. cried from the 1st 5 minute when i start watch oo.. haha.. din affect my day the next day larr.. just my shuang yan pi bian dan lorr.. haha..
3rd nite is now lorr.. got a book from sophia.. but dun think i would start reading b4 i finish the drama.. now still dono want sleep or watch drama.. tomolo have to do lots of things lorr.. haha..

this post kinda fei.. just about my life.. but i just like to know how i spent it.. 1st 3 days and nights after SPM bah.. haha.. tomolo cai reply the tag by melo.. hehe.. 1st tag of this blog..

raining

it is just the best way to spend the night when SPM ends..

on the very night that i thought will be the happiest night ever...

i cried.

all night..

alone..

in my room..

this rainy season..

how many nights i cried alone in my room..

before SPM.. during SPM.. and after SPM..

it was raining outside.. and i was all by myself..

是因为太孤单的夜。。还是太安静的夜。。

夜空星光闪烁。。我却没有闲情去享受那片沉静。。

或许是害怕未来，或许是过分想你，或许是忘了快乐。。

我不懂。。我的眼泪。。几时才会停滞。。

下雨天了怎么办 我好想你 不敢打给你 我找不到原因

什么失眠的声音 变得好熟悉 沉默的场景 做你的代替 陪我听雨滴

期待让人越来越沉迷 谁和我一样 等不到他的谁

爱上你我总在学会 寂寞的滋味

一个人撑伞 一个人擦泪

一个人好累

我好像该戒了想你的习惯。。戒了。。应该 会活得比较好吧？

我开心就好。。 是吧？

independence

stepping out from the school..

I wondered where my future lies..

christmas is coming.. and then is new year.. and after that is??


i have always know that being a student is the most happy moments of life.. the future just stretch out like that.. 3 years of kindergarden, 6years of primary school, 5 years of secondary school and then.. maybe 4 years of uni??.. but.. i felt so different now.. it just doesn't feel the same way to go from a kindergarden to a primary school, from a primary school to a secondary school, or now.. from secondary school to pre-u.. it is so different.. i donno how to decide.. it feels like a really big step..
and the big difference is.. my parents wont tell me where is my directions.. i have to choose myself.. +_+


bro and sis had decide their future themselves.. and they have choose their life.. what about me.. how do everyone face this problem.. i know that i should decide this after sec. school.. so i have been thinking about it for at least 2 years.. but.. i still donno where to go.. what to do.. and what is the goal of my life... I DONT KNOW!!!!!

felt so rotten now.. everytime i ask my dad.. he will be like.. "little gal, finish your spm 1st.. dun worry about it yet" but he never know.. after everytime i ask him.. is because i felt very helpless.. and have no directions at all.. i know that i will be facing it soon... and it is now.. this problem is just so massive.. for me.. i hate being so helpless..

learning independent.. the 1st step to success.. and learn to make decisions.. i just hate that..

SPM ends..

27/11/2008 一个值得记得的日期... 或许吧... 因为.. 我的内心好像并没有想象中快乐..
是因为你吗?
这三个星期.. 有你的陪伴.. 可能让我过得轻松许多吧..
无法告诉你..
有多少个无眠的夜, 是因为有你的相伴...
有多少次安稳的睡, 是因为梦里听见你幽默的笑..
又有多少个失眠的夜, 是因为我倔强不找你..
还有多少个安静的夜, 是因为我不知该不该找你..
你知道吗.. 我有多挣扎.. 隔天考物理.. 我最害怕的恶梦..
那一夜.. 我不敢找你.. 不是怕烦你.. 你说过你不会读了..
我不敢让自己习惯在内心惶恐时找你..
即使知道我很需要你..
我怕以后我找不到你了.. 我会完了..
知道一直在骗自己.. 可是我真的相信.. 一切都过了..
想不到理由再挂念你.. 我亲爱的朋友..
可是..
今天可能是我们最后一次见面了吧.. 跟你有多少次的擦肩而过..
我们连四目对焦的勇气都没有..
今早问你我们的相识.. 你朋友知道吗..
你应该明白我的意思..
因为有太多次.. 你好不自然..
我想告诉你.. 我不是隐形的.. 更不是瞎的..
我在意.. 你骄傲的步调..
不会再见了吧..
或许不说再见..
我们就会真的永远不见了吧..

有一点点希望.. 我会忘了一些不存在的回忆..
因为我不想忘记你..
撒盐.. 我们都撒的彻底..
最后..别忘了.. 加油..

i LoVe all my dear friends!!

just read leefen's post about how she feels that her family love her deeply.. hehe.. so now, i also want to tell all my friends and family here that in every seconds of my life, in the past, now and future, i felt loved and blessed.. hehe.. every moment, i appreciate everyone who affects my life, and bring happiness and joy to my very soul.. haha.. {i'm in a very happy mood currently..dono why} i love my family... always.. and i love all my friends... especially you.. who still come here and read my nonsense.. hehe.. and the one who always help me when i face difficulties, the one who accompany me when i can't sleep, the one who won't complain no matter how late i find you, the one who will not leave me alone.. really thank you and 辛苦你了,朋友!!! i love all my dear friends!!! ^o^

4 days to the end

after so long time abandoning my blog, i finally come back.. it is just so not true that i saved the time from blogging to study smart.. it's just a typical excuse for being lazy to sign in and blog.. haha.. i can't stay away from blogging at all actually.. these days when i din write here, i will just jot down my feelings or draw somethings on my books when i am staring at my books.. blogging is actually a good way to express self feelings at all times.. but to me.. i think i blog way too much until now i'm not sure of controlling my feelings.. ^.^ i sees like cannot pull myself together, decide anything myself, and just want to share my feelings at all time.. have to control myself lerr.. hehe.. ^_^
i am now in the mood of no more exams.. so this last week of SPM.. i hope i wont just very 萧洒地放手 ... haha.. i want to put a fire on all my books lerr.. maybe there should be a culture where students burn all their books after graduation.. anyway if we go into uni the things we study are all different already.. and the concepts we learn now are all wrong de in the future.. ^o^

A new blog again

changing site here right after my secondary school life..
I'm still me.. and this blog will be activated as soon as Spm ends...