when can i really start studying!! i lost the knob to turn on my study mode.. +_+

an unproductive evening i spent.. how it started??
i stayed in my room for the whole afternoon.. doing wat? stare at the ceiling and fall asleep.. then wake up to watch an action movie"龙在边缘".. the hero almost dead at the end.. i screamed.. then i watched the JAPANESE (thanks to correction from Hazel^^) drama "极道鲜师"!! oh boy!! they are so so so so good-looking!! when they are in the drama anyway.. my first impression about them are just gangster.. that just okie..okie..looking.. haha.. and i shouted like how can they be so cute?? when they posing in the drama.. getting so addicted to this drama.. but my parents sort of complained about me making so much noise.. when watching tv alone.. ermm.. i kinda change my watching tv style and dono since when i start voicing out my exclaimation.. but i controlled myself when i am watching with friends larr.. dun want to be annoying.. ^^ anyway i really recommend this drama.. dunno its eng name.. but the story is about a teacher from a gangster family teaching 3D class!! got 3 series!! dear buddies!! just try watch it when u got some time!! hehe.. they are really cute!!
how my day goes after that.. play facebook for a while.. and now blogging.. missed the part i go bathing so i am still in my suit that i went to class this morning.. ohmy.. glanced at the clock and it says 10.25pm.. i must go shower now.. ^^ hope i can finally start study tomolo..

reaching for the star

just another post to make myself feels better.. which means this post kinda more fei than the last one^___^ dun ask me why i put that title.. wont relate to my post anyway.. alright.. some updates on my unilife..
went to class on a regular basis.. and skip classes regularly too*_// i got something else to do.. eherm.. haha.. cant think of anything interesting.. just some intro on my units??(after 2 months i shud know wat i am learning)
business-- i haven touch the book for a good long month.. +_+
math-- repeating MT but still i cannot catch up with the lecture that i missed.. the only one..
it-- fun for the movie? not quite.. but still happy it is done..
eng-- my essay sucks.. and i din get some attendance coz tutor tick another name (coz i thought it was my name..haizz..)
moral-- coming to the end of this unit.. but i din recognize any term that the lecturer used b4.. and the fun of this unit is the moral sketch..??

duh.. dono what to write lerr.. ohkay.. i think i never mentioned this before.. the first thing on my wishlist now is a new lappy.. getting sick of using the computer with parents around nagging..
and the second one is a new stuffed toys on my bed.. the dog i loved is still my favourite.. but it is now getting black coz i hug it more often than ever now..
and the third is.. good results?? i dunno whether i cared anymore.. as long as life is good.. .^^.

time flies..

it had been a really long time since i update my life with news from my old schoolmates.. seems like everyone's is moving on to their own's new and challenging life.. well.. i won't say i am stuck back at home and get bored with life.. my life is just never been so good before.. even though there are still assignment and projects due.. and some small mess in my life.. my heart feels like stop thumping for one sec.. and then mess up its regular beating..

coming to the end of May.. has it been a really long semester for me? yeah.. gone through quite a number of things??.. dreaded for the semester to ends.. it just note that the big big exams are coming nearer.. :/ i tried not to use the words i 'learnt' in Curtin.. (U knoe wat i meant) aarghhh.. i am getting so heated up when i think about u!!!!! (put in any bad words u like.. i used it in my mind anyway..)

to calm myself down.. lets see what is good in my life..
i smile all day without any reason.. (good??)
i still got about a fortnight before my next round of projects due (yeah..)
i still got around one month?? before my final exam.. (ermm...)
i still can stick to a bunch of friends (doubt??)
i come home everyday and sleep on my queen-size bed (i will miss it soon..)
i am quite addicted to facebook (good??)
i found back my close friend.. (u wont know i missed u^^)
k.. i cant make it to 10 yet.. but it is enough for me to be happy for a good long time.. haha..
and to my friends.. i miss you all.. and hope to see u all again.. whenever we got the chance..

enjoying life!!

ohla!!! my life now is like too good to be true!! i am like smiling all day long (hope i dun look like a nerd) without any special reason!! haha!! even though i have like 3 projects and many more assignments due this friday.. and i haven start most of it.. i am just over the rainbow and i donno why..^.^ ^.^

listen to music

listening to the songs.. browsing through the library.. and i found the song i heard almost everynight last time.. to let me go to sleep.. it sounded so familiar.. and the scene just all come back into view.. in a big hospital room.. and my bro with me almost everynight.. wait for me to doze off first before he lies down.. i feel so touched even until now.. and the songs we have that time are so limited.. so almost everynight i listen to the same song.. everytime i heard this song.. it just remind me of the time i just depend on my dearest bro.. thank you for letting me stand up till now.. i appreciate whatever u did that time.. to come and fro between 2 hospital when u also suffer the same pain psychologically.. to be truthful i believe u suffered more.. it just wont happen that i will ever forget the things we been thru.. i miss everyone in the family.. and i look forward to our next gathering..

update on curtin life..

Hehe.. what should i say about my school life now? meet with a gang of friends is all that matters to me now.. thank you for being with me all this time.. to meet with the 'disaster' and all.. u all are the reasons for me to look forward to going campus everyday.. it make my mum wonders sometime why my timetable become so regular compared to the 1st week.. yea.. almost everyday stay in campus for more than 8 hours... to chat with friends and 'discuss' about assignments.. little do they know that my class is only from 8 to 10 that day, or 3 till 5.. love u all very much.. making my life different.. 1C7, best class just like my old classes before.. ^^
and for my moral tutorial class, thanks for not blaming about my absence for the practices.. we have fun together and hope that our drama will be chosen.. i felt sorry if i had spoilt parts of the drama.. and that i haven contribute as much as u all did.. but i will do my best for u all in the future!! just fun being the largest group of all and loving the unity between us..
and about mother's day last Sunday.. well, thanks to bro we all got to KK for last weekend. took lots of pics.. went to one pulau and the mount KK.. quite enjoyable trip.. just that right after the trip i suffered the second diarrhea in my life untill now.. hope i get better soon..

Something to share..

出生一张纸，开始一辈子；

毕业一张纸，奋斗一辈子；

婚姻一张纸，折磨一辈子；

做官一张纸，斗争一 辈子；

金钱一张纸，辛苦一辈子；

荣誉一张纸，虚名一辈子；

看病一张纸，痛苦一辈子；

悼词一张纸， 了结一辈子；

淡化这些纸，明白一辈子；

忘了这些纸，快乐一辈子!

当大部分人都在关注你飞得高不高时，

只有少部分人关心你飞得累不累，

这就是友情。

再忙，也要照顾好自己，

朋友虽不常联系，却一直惦念。

遇事潇洒一点，看世糊涂一点。

三个忘记：

忘记年龄，

忘记过去，

忘记恩怨。

四个拥有：

无论你有多弱或多强，一定要

拥有真正爱你的人，

拥有知心的朋友，

拥有向上的事业，

拥有温暖的住所。

五个要：

要唱，

要跳，

要俏，

要笑，

要苗条。

六个不能：

不能饿了才吃，

不能渴了才喝，

不能困了才睡，

不能累了才歇，

不 能病了才检查，

不能老了再后悔。

thank you

blessed to have friends and family with me.. even though we might quarrels, we always get better after the silly fights. thanks for always being there when i need u. and thanks for not leaving me in despair when i am lost. love u all always. to my family, i love everyone of u. i feel your support for me even when you are not physically next to me. it makes me cry when i feel your warm support and care for me. i love you so much. and miss you always. i love you with all my might, my sisters.

is it just life?

My frens always wonder why i seem to be so moody.. or got the really depressed looking face all day long.. oh dear.. it just happened that i don like to smile that morning.. and i dun feel like chatting.. or really feel lazy to speak.. and ya.. somewhat it relates to my lack of ability to destress in this time of life.. this 'depressed' feeling just come and goes.. and i know that i should really just feel contented with my life and be grateful with whatever life holds for me.. but sometime i just.. just..

greedy and want the life to go better and smoother??

Should i reveal my lack of confidence and ability to mix around ppl that i just meet?

Does it bother them that i don chat with them at all times?

i am feeling like i am all alone all this while.. even when i am in campus with a full class of people..

watched too much tv? feels like there is something like spotlight shone to me just that it is a black light.. so that i will always be ignored.. including by myself.. haha.. yea.. i watched too much tv.. ^^